Marla – and not because I’m unhappy with my own first name, but because it’s unique and mine really isn’t. If I were ever famous or a designer, it would have to be different from my real name. I’m not serious about changing it, but only because I don’t think I ever will have that need or desire. I’m not exactly shooting for the stars here, so I don’t think I’ll have to, you know?
[plinky prompt: if you could choose any other name for yourself, what would it be?]
Change. I’m avoiding the change I know needs to be made. Decisions, every day. Do or don’t? I’m convicted.
People do what they want to do – meaning that unless there is a change inside, no matter what words you say, or what promises you make, or what you’re thinking, you’ll always find a way to do what you want. There’s always a way to break the rules, to hop the fence, or to go around, but if we inwardly purpose to do right, to abide by the rules and laws that have been put there for our protection and benefit… if we truly *want* to change, we will.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me – Philipians 4:13
Do I want to change? Inside, I do. Outside? I’m overloaded with my temptation, with my comfortable life, with my “everyday”. Sometimes we need to give up what we love, what means the most, in order to change for the better. Sometimes it’s hard, but we can do it.
(Plinky prompt: What are you avoiding?)
No more suffering, no more pain
Never again
I’m in the war of my life,
at the door of my life,
out of time
and there’s nowhere to run
I’m in the war of my life,
at the core of my life
Got no choice but to fight til its done
So fight on,
fight on everyone
fight on
got no choice but to fight til it’s done
I won’t give up
I won’t run
I won’t stop for anyone…
This is part of a song by John Mayer called War of My Life. It’s really inspiring, and exactly what I feel right now – there’s a lot of decisions to be made (every day is a new decision isn’t it? But that’s another post…) and somehow, the way he puts it is perfect. Fight on!
M.fs
